Aside from it being winter (I hate the cold), I love the idea of a New Year! A clean slate, anything is possible, and of course tackling those resolutions. One of my resolutions (one of many I might add) is to blog more about my creative inspiration as well as my struggle to balance it all. To express somehow that nagging need for more in regards to my artistic expression. When I wasn’t photographing for others, it was always my vision, my voice if you will that I was listening to when pressing the shutter. All of that changes when you are taking pictures for someone else, and it is so hard to remember that they chose you for you. As a photographer who specialize in families and children, I know that my clients do want that perfect smiling face looking directly at the camera and yet that is not what my inner voice is always seeing as the best expression of that individual. I have been so lucky to have so many clients who do love the images that speak to me, but I still feel that need to create what others want and not what I want. One of my goals is to make time for personal shooting, personal projects so that I am able to get that need met on my own.
A few other goals/resolutions that I have are…
- of course to be more organized tops the list every year
- make more time for friends and family both old and new
- not take on more than I can handle which goes along with learning how to say no
- being more present with my kids
- feeding my creative needs (see above)
- and I must take note of the fact that for the first time in my life, loosing weight is not on the list! Not because I suddenly don’t have that struggle anymore, but because it has lost it’s importance! Now being healthy, fit and strong are still priorities but I can honestly say that at 44 I finally no longer feel defined by my body!!! How liberating that is! I think feeling success as an artist, and Mother has helped me to put the size of ”my ass” in perspective!!!!! Lets see how long that feeling lasts?
For today I leave you with a quote that exemplifies to me how I like to photograph people!
The importance of being human. About closing your eyes. It’s not about seeing with a camera; it’s about feeling as a human being, and seeing with your heart.
Marcus Yam
and of course no post is complete without pictures, so here are a few from our Christmas vacation in Vail Colorado…
